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Johannesburg

In 2020 OCC! expanded its scope and encouraged students to explore local initiatives in their city, resulting in entries from various locations. OCC! also wished to create a space for imaginative exploration of the future, and we asked students how would the place you live look like in year 2200, culminating in entries from across the world, allowing our imaginations to broaden of what futures we hope or fear for. Here below you find all the entries that are from Johannesburg.

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List of experiences: TOTAL RESULTS 2

Johannesburg I The Maltese Embassy

By Adam Potterton

The steel door clangs shut behind her casting the small concrete entranceway into darkness. Her breath clouds in the icy air. A shiver runs up her spine and her body gives an involuntary twitch. She pushes open the wooden door. Light spills into the entranceway casting it in soft orange. She feels the warmth from the room wash over her and it brings a faint smell of disinfectant mixed with cooking oil. At the bottom of the three steps is a coat stand and she takes her purple coat off. She examines the room. It’s small, some three meters wide and seven meters long. The floor is covered in a brown carpet patterned with orange shapes. There are the usual geometric ones and some other more interesting shapes the colour of whatever liquid was spilt. The bar is your standard plank of wood with stools lined up. An old man stands behind it. His chin rests on his chest. A game of soccer is playing on an old holoscreen. She feels a pang when she sees the red ground they’re playing on. The carpet muffles the stomps of her boots as she walks to the bar. She sits on one of the stools waiting for the man to stir. Behind him, there is another door that she presumes to lead upstairs. Next to it stands a large metal filing cabinet and another small counter. She is uncomfortably upright in the stool and his head has flopped further down his chest. They must have been like this for five minutes before she eventually removes a glove and raps her knuckles on the bar. She has a thin red band on her left thumb. The man slowly stirs, blinking up at her and giving her a smile.

            “Sorry about that. I dozed off. We don’t get too many customers these days. What can I get you?”

            She looks at the faded menu behind him, “No worries. Can I get an old fashioned? Thanks.”

            The man nods before bending to get a glass from beneath the counter and a clear bottle. He fills the glass up halfway before sliding it to her.

            “What’s this?”

            “An old fashioned.”

            She takes a small sip and gives a small cough, “It’s just vodka!”

            “Well, yes.”

            “But you said it was an old fashioned.”

            “It is.”

            “What do you mean it is?” She glares at him.

            “Well that’s all we have. Whatever you order it will just be vodka. But still, it’s nice to give the customer options.” He points at a silver urn behind him, “I can add some hot water if you would like.”

            “For the next one,” she sighs and downs the drink.

            He takes the glass. The scratch of the lid unscrewing blends with the low hum of a reclimatiser. The sides of the glass fog up as he pours in some hot water.

            “Cheers,” she sits with her hands cupped around the glass. “So why only vodka?”

            The man waves a hand in the direction of the roof, “I’ve got a little potato farm going above us. The highest floors are too cold to do anything in but one can use a small reclimatiser in some of the lower ones, if you have the energy.”

            “You couldn’t get some crop diversification?”

            “No,” he spits some phlegm into the bucket next to him. “I only know potatoes. The vodka is easy enough to make too.”

            She turns her attention away from him, focusing instead on the soccer and letting her mind wander. The old man is scowling at a knot of wood in the bar. He clicks his tongue before turning back to the urn. He fills a mug with boiling water for himself and then settles back to watch the holoscreen. The match provides poor viewing, one team content to pass and the other quite happy to watch them.

            “Shit game.” he refills her glass.

            “Yes, I’ve never cared much for soccer.”

            “No… I mean.”

            “I know,” she briefly smiles. “How about you? Do you care much for soccer?”

            “What a question!” His posture straightens as he launches into a “It was twenty one fifty… or somewhere there about, the maths gets tricky sometimes. Before all this ice shit, I don’t know if you’re old enough to know what things were like before this. Hotter I’ll tell you that much. We, Bafana Bafana I mean, were playing this consortium from the EU. It was in Ellis Park, a full house too. They had just finished a roof upgrade, and I must have been about seven or eight. Anyway, I was there with my uncle, ended up on his shoulders a lot in that game, and my what a game. I don’t know if my ears ever recovered. The vuvuzelas, well them combined with that roof – have you heard a vuvuzela? Well, they’re loud and after we scored the first goal they went off and the whole roof was buzzing along too. My voice was gone from all the singing and shouting just from that goal. The final score was two all but after that, I became soccer mad. It was a short walk home, but my uncle was worried I’d collapse from a heatstroke. Hold on,” he ducks out of the room.

            When he returns he is holding a large frame. He places it on the bar. “I got this one after another game. It’s Modise Moeng’s shirt. Do you know Modise? You don’t know what beauty is till you’ve seen him on the ball. Let me show you. Rose can you bring up highlights of Modise’s game against the USA, the 5-2 one. Just replace this other game that’s on.” The holoscreen briefly goes black as it searches for the video.

            She has forgotten about her drink in the bartender’s barrage. Seeing it again she takes another sip, “Great old fashioned.”

            “Thanks, I haven’t even done a bartending course would you believe it? But look here,” he points at the screen. “That’s Modise right there, see his movement. It’s so subtle, the way he uses it to draw players away from where he wants to go.”

            They watch Modise weave and bounce the ball between players. “Oh this is good. I still wish he had scored this.”

            The ball rolls to Modise on the left-wing, he drops his right shoulder sending the defender to the left before flicking the ball up to the right. He catches it on the volley and the ball arcs upward before dipping viciously down. The keeper’s fingertips just send it onto the crossbar. The crowd groans.

            “I celebrated that one a bit early when I was there. He died a few years later. Got caught out in a lightning storm. Switch back Rose.” The game from earlier comes on again.

            “These matches on Mars aren’t quite the same. The lower leagues can’t afford to maintain grass pitches that’s why it’s red, some pitch they’ve made from dust on Mars. But the real difference is the gravity, you see how the ball bounces just a little off? I think the players move a bit differently too. When you remember all the history around clubs here it also can’t be the same. I’m sure they’ll try recreate it but it will take a couple generations to get it right. I’ll be gone then, good riddance.”

            “Who’s playing now?”

            “M.K. Martians and Dons F.C.” he picks up a rag and wipes the bar. He moves along the grains of the wood. The rag swirls around the knots. He works according to some standard unknown to her. The minute extra bit of sparkle from this polish is visible only to him. “I’m Al, by the way, seeing as I’ve bored you with all that soccer stuff.”

            “Q,” she nods at him.

            “Another drink?”

            “Please.”

            The clear liquid spills sluggishly out the top of the bottle. Steam rises from the glass as Al places it back in front go her. “So Q, what do you do?”

            “I make deliveries.”

            “You’re a smuggler?”

            She glares at him, “I never said that.”

            “There aren’t many people who come to Earth these days, let alone Joburg, to make deliveries ‘cept smugglers.”

            “You asked me what I do, not why I was here.”

            “That I did.”

            A short silence falls between them.

            “So why are you here?”

            “Personal reasons.”

            “In Joburg?”

            “Yes.”

            “Well, what are they then?”

            “Were they. I came to look for someone but I didn’t have much success. I’m now waiting for the Mars-shuttle to orbit above.”

            “You should count yourself lucky you even found a bar down here let alone a specific person. There aren’t too many people who have stuck around. The bar is empty most nights.”

            As if to prove him wrong the clang of the first door can be heard. The wooden door swings open and a large man stoops into the room. He is wearing a black trench coat and one of those fluffy Russian hats with ear coverings. His eyes flicker behind his mask. The room looks especially narrow in his presence.

            “Hello Themba.”

            “Sawubona Al.” He walks over and clasps Al’s hand. “How are you?”

            “I’m good, I’m good. How are you Themba?

            “Same old, hey.”

            “I have a new customer,” Al waves at Q.

            Themba nods at her.

            “I’ve got your stuff over here,” Al reaches beneath the bar. He brings out a fresh bottle of vodka and a basket. It is mainly filled with potatoes but Q also notes some kale, carrots, and mushrooms.

            “Thanks Al, take care.” He walks to the door, the basket and bottle clenched in one hand. He swings the wooden door closed behind him.

            “A regular.”

            “I thought you only did potatoes?”

            There is another clang as the metal door shuts behind Themba.

            “Oh. Well I have some other small crops going. Enough to keep myself and two of the families nearby fed.”

            “Are things bad here?”

            “So so. We still make do and that’s what matters.”

            “Have you ever thought about leaving?”

            “No. I can’t say that I have, at least never seriously.”

            “Why not?”

            “Joburg is the only place for me,” he looks at her. “I couldn’t just throw it all away. My family has been here since the beginning. Add in this bar. Well it was actually a couple streets down but the building collapsed so I reclaimed this one. But that bar down the street, it had been a dream of my great-grandfathers. Now maybe I’m just sentimental but I’m not throwing it all away. There’s so much for me to remember, not just for myself but for everyone.”

            “Noble.”

            “I don’t know about that. It’s just all I can think to do. When’s this Mars-shuttle coming over?”
           

“Five am.”

            “That’s early.”

            “It is.”

            “You better have somewhere to stay tonight.”

            “My ship.”

            “Your ship?! You’re crazy.”

            “Crazy? How so?” She glares at him.

            “The cold! Not to mention that some of these buildings are liable to collapse at any second.”

            “My ship’s been warm enough the last two nights I’ve been here.”

            “You’re lucky it’s summer. Two nights.” Al shakes his head. “I won’t have it. Tell you what. I usually lock up at twelve, maybe one if I have a customer. After that the bar’s empty. I guarantee it’s more comfy than your ship if you need a place to stay.”

            “Thanks. I’ll think about it.”

            “I can’t be sending someone out into the cold. My mother would die of shame. No, no, it’s nice to have some company. Otherwise, I’m just going to stand here in front of the soccer dozing for the rest of the night.”

            “Alright,” she forces a smile. “I’ll take you up on it.”

            “Excellent. For a moment I was worried that you’d be too stubborn,” he chuckles. “You know my mother once ended up housing nearly half this street.”

            Q thinks of the blocks of flats lining the street, “This street? Impossible.”

            “I swear. Granted there weren’t as many flats then. I don’t remember it really well, I was quite small at a point believe it or not, but it was one of her favourite stories.” He drinks some water. “Now that kooky scientist group who caused all this damn ice weren’t around yet so things weren’t quite as cold back then but the weather was a tad unpredictable. Anyway. There had been some tremendous winds, well I’m told, for almost the whole week and while the days were usually manageable the nights could get quite dangerous. Are you hungry by the way?”

            “Oh. Not really.”

            “Ah, I’ll get some chips going anyway. Can’t hurt can it?” Al cranks his neck and hops up. He pulls a small metal basket and chopping board out from under the bar. After laying these out he walks to the filing cabinet. He slides open the bottom drawer, selects some potatoes and kicks it closed before walking back. “Now where was I?”

            “I believe it had been a week of tremendous winds.”

            “Oh yes.” He starts cutting the potatoes. The dull thunk of the knife as he slices the potatoes keeps a steady rhythm. “Now these winds were almost hurricane-like in their intensity and after three days of creaking and groaning the power lines started collapsing. Now when I was little I always thought of it like some dominoes falling but I doubt they fell altogether.”

            “I like the image. Pylons tumbling.”

            “It has a nice scale, doesn’t it? So all the power was out. The wind was still going like crazy and the frosts at night were getting deadly. You can imagine how having no power would affect things. By this time it was pretty hard to come by gas which didn’t help. So my mom ended up taking people in. We had this early reclimatiser. It was atomised so the power wasn’t a problem. In the end, it must have been about thirty people all crammed into this little three-bedroom place. I’m surprised we even needed the reclimatiser with all the body heat. We were crammed in there for five or six days. My brother and I didn’t mind, we were at the age when people are endlessly exciting, but I’m not sure how my parents coped. My mom was a lawyer and there was a big mining dispute going on but somehow she still managed to keep everyone fed and somewhat happy.”

            “She sounds like a great woman.”

            “Oh, she was. She left far too early, diabetes. You would have thought that shit wouldn’t happen anymore but it did.”

            “I’m sorry to hear that.”

            “It’s what happens.”

            Al scoops the chips into the basket. He gives the basket a jiggle as he walks to the small countertop. With a wave of his hand a contact plate appears. He places an old pot of oil on top of it. Immediately the surface begins to dance with bubbles. He dunks the chips in.

            “I hope you don’t mind me using oil. I just think it doesn’t taste the same without it.”

            “That’s no fuss for me. Where did you manage to even get a hold of oil down here?”

            “Trade secret,” he tweaks his nose. “I can’t go telling you everything just yet now can I.”

            “Got to stay one step ahead of the competition?”

            “Exactly. As you can see it’s working well,” he says, gesturing at the room. “But what about your family?”

            “Uh. I don’t have nearly as much to say about them as you.”

            “Come on, there’s got to be something. I mean you’re speaking to a man who hasn’t been to Mars.”

            “Well,” she picks at her sleeve. “Mars is alright. My dad and I went to live there when I was pretty young. He was a plumber-”

            “There are always jobs for plumbers.”

            “Exactly. He ended up working for the sewer works but he hated it. The part he liked about plumbing, apart from it paying the bills, was getting to meet all these different people. There’s an intimacy in plumbing was what he liked to say. But up there he’s just in the sewerage works all day.”

            “Sounds shit.”

            “That’s poor.”

            “I know, I know. But couldn’t they just use those robots there?”

            “They could, and do to an extent, but I think they find people more cost effective.”

            “And your mother?”

            “She couldn’t find a job so they refused to take her up. She was meant to join us at a later point but I’m sure you know how that usually goes.”

            “Fucking hell,” Al’s face darkens. “All that stuff about a better world and they still end up keeping families apart.”

            “It’s bunk.” Q takes a sip of her drink. It has grown lukewarm since her last. “We kept in touch but the communication dried up when I was about fifteen. Most families couldn’t even keep it going that long with the cost so I guess I was lucky.”

            “Do you know what happened to her?”

            “She died. But I don’t know about the years between then and whenever she died.”

            “Ah. I’m sorry to hear that.”

            “As you said, it’s what happens.”

            “I’m old I can say that. The chips!” Al dashes to the pot. The chips are a golden brown and take turns swimming up to break the surface of the oil. He hoists the pot onto the chopping board. He gives another wave and the contact plate disappears. “Sorry to interrupt. I just don’t want these overcooking.”

            “No no, please. They smell delicious.”

            Al lays out a cloth on the bar top and places the chips on it. “Can I top you up?”

            “Just some water for now.”

            Al leaves the chips to drain and refills Q’s glass. “How did you find out she had died?”

            “Thanks. Um. It was on this trip. I had been postponing it for a while, I’d even been back to Earth a couple of times in the past two years but had always avoided Joburg.”

            “Been back to Earth a couple of times. You must be a smuggler.”

            “Maybe. We don’t need to worry about that for now though.”

            “Understood. So this was the trip?”

            “This was the trip. It was a little anti-climatic in fact. I had expected a grand search maybe, little clues to follow, or hell maybe even for her to just still be here and I wouldn’t have to look at all.”

            “But?”

            “Well in the end it was all too easy. All that distance and time makes you think they’re lost in a funny way. But I went to our old street.”

            “Whereabouts?”

            “Auckland Park.”

            “Oh, just down the hill.”

            “Yeah. So I went there. The house we had stayed in was gone, collapsed probably. I left my ship and was just walking up and down. I mean I didn’t really know what else to do – I’ve never gone looking for someone. So I was walking up and down and feeling a little silly you know, like what did I think was going to happen?”

            “What did?”

            “Well, I had been strolling somewhat aimlessly for a couple of hours when this old lady poked her head out of one of the houses. She gave me this whole long spiel about the cold and it being dangerous. I mumbled an apology and was going to walk back to the ship, get some sleep or something. I wasn’t feeling too enthused about the possibilities of finding her. But I decided why not ask this woman if she knew anything, I mean she was on the same street. Next thing I was being bundled inside for a cup of tea amidst a bunch of exclamations of how much I’ve grown, honestly I couldn’t place her face at all. I felt a little bad but I was young. She was a friend of my mom’s, told me that with her asthma and the cold my mom just deteriorated more and more. In the end, pneumonia got her. It’s funny, something like that is a non-issue on Mars but here all those sicknesses could still kill people.”

            Al smiles gently at her, “I’m sorry you couldn’t see her one last time.”

            “Me too, me too. They had buried her up at the Brixton cemetery so I got to visit her grave. It was a bit haphazard. I.” Q sighs, her thumb has been rubbing a chip in the glass. “I… just.”

            “I know.” Al scoops the chips onto a plate and sprinkles a liberal amount of salt over them. “Here you go.”

            “Thanks.” Q takes a chip blowing on it lightly to cool it before popping it into her mouth. “God these are hot.”

            “I would hope so. Would you like some tomato sauce?” Al now gets a large glass bottle of red sauce out from under the counter. “Now this is something you won’t get on Mars. Not the tomato sauce but the brand. All Gold. My grandad knew this guy, Meneer Wessels, who was a bit of a hoarder. The company went under, well before you were born probably, but he had a room which was filled, wall to wall, with these. They’re technically expired but you can’t take those dates seriously when it comes to sauces.”

            “Sure, why not.”

            Al pours out a large dollop next to the pile of chips giving the bottle a slight twist as he finishes. They sit for a while, taking turns to swirl a chip in the tomato sauce, their eyes on the soccer. It is the 75th minute and M.K Martians find themselves under growing pressure. The one all draw they had held up till now is looking increasingly tenuous.

            “I’m glad I made these. One thing I’ve learned here is that people always have room for chips.”

            “They’re excellent.”

            The pile of chips grows smaller and the Martians’ defence has disappeared. By the 85th minute, they find themselves hoping, more than anything else, that the opposition doesn’t score a fifth. Disgruntled fans are filtering out of the stadium and the commentary has turned to speculation about the manager’s future.

            “Not looking good for him.” Q waves a chip at the holoscreen, a stray bit of tomato sauce flying onto the table. “Shit, sorry about that.”

            “Don’t worry,” the cloth has reappeared in Al’s hands and he is quickly wiping the bar top clean. “It certainly isn’t, for the whole club in fact.”

            “Oh yeah?”

            “Yes, they were one of the first ‘Mars’ clubs so to say in that they weren’t just expressing nostalgia for cities or teams people had abandoned long ago. But there was some economic regulation stuff. You know they manage to make all that seemingly more and more complex just so it’s hard for a layman like me to understand. But let’s not get into economics.” Al scratches his head. “So, their owners ended up violating some terms or something and soon found all sorts of punishments and regulations against them. Since then it’s been downhill. They used to play in the Premier Division and now they’re kicking dust about in the third. I’m just glad I’m not a fan of theirs.”

            “Do you think they’ll stick around?”

            “Who knows. As far as I’m concerned all of the teams are the same these days.”

            “You still watch them though.”

            “That’s just because the habit is too ingrained.”

            At full time the players walk off to jeers and boos, the brief moment of ecstasy brought about by the first goal seeming so far away.

            “What’s the time by the way?”

            Q’s eyes flick to her watch, “Around eleven forty.”

            “Eleven forty and I’m already this tired. I’m getting too old for barkeeping.”

            “I haven’t given you much time to doze.”

            “That’s true. But any barkeep relying on dozing is not worth their salt.”

            “Don’t be so harsh. If I had to make a list of bartenders you’d be up there at the top.”

            “Hm. How about one more drink and then I think I’ll have to lock up. Another old-fashioned?”

            “Sure.”

            “Let me just go get some stuff for you for the night and then I’ll start making it.”

            Al walks out of the room. Q studies the pattern made by the residual tomato sauce. She checks her watch, no new notifications. She selects the news feed, an EMP blast in the Northern quadrant. Inane punditry takes place on the holoscreen. The door swings open and Q hears some heavy breaths before a mattress slides through.

            “Won’t you carry this around?”

            “Of course,” Q says jumping up. “You should have called earlier.”

            “Nonsense. It’s good for me to stretch my legs. Here’s a pillow and a light blanket. The reclimatiser will be left on so you shouldn’t need much more.”

            “Thanks again. This will definitely beat the ship.” Q drags the mattress around the bar laying it out on the floor with a thump.

            “Of course. It’s no sweat off my back. Now about that drink,” Al picks up a small crate and walks back to the bar with it. He lays out a cloth on the table and begins unpacking an assortment of items. Cubes of sugar, some bitters, a dusty bottle with what Q takes to be bourbon, and what appear to be mint leaves. “I’ve been experimenting with some genetics so this mint should have a more citrusy flavour. Orange trees are a bit tricky indoors.”

            He claps a leaf, “Here, tell me what you think.”

            Q pops it into her mouth and her eyes widen. It’s not just the sour sweetness but also the sheer amount of juice contained in the small leaf, “Wow.”

            “Not very natural at this point but I think it gets the job done.”

            Q watches as he begins preparing the drink. First, he throws a sugar cube into the bottom of a glass. Next, he sprinkles some bitters over the cube. He takes a small wooden pestle out of the crate and gently muddles them together.

            “I keep this crate for special occasions. Usually, I’m only making drinks for Themba and with him it’s usually vodka and some juice or in the morning a Prairie Oyster,” Al says looking up from his work.

            “Prairie Oyster?”

            “Some hangover cure he’s a fan of. Gin, or in his case vodka, egg yolk, hot sauce, and pepper. I would avoid it.”

            “You mean you have eggs too?”

            “Themba and his wife have some chickens, unbelievably well-trained mind, so I get eggs from them every now and then.” He pours out some bourbon before throwing in some ice cubes.

            “You guys have a small farm going between you.”

            “We need to, no one can afford the prices of things from Mars.” He twists two mint leaves and throws them in. Once satisfied that it is sufficiently mixed he stops stirring and slides the glass to Q. “Your old-fashioned.”

            “Thank you.”

            Al gets another glass and throws in three ice cubes before pouring some bourbon over them, “Cheers.”

            They drink in silence each lost in their own thoughts. Occasionally the sound of the wind howling outside reaches them. Condensation gathers on their glasses as the ice slowly melts. Q downs the last bit. She gazes through the bottom of her glass as the ice swirls around it. She puts the glass back to her lips and sucks the last of the melting ice into her mouth, finishing it with a crunch. She slides her glass back to Al.

            “I. Thanks, Al. For the drink, well for all this really.”

            “Of course, of course. I enjoyed it. It’s good to meet someone new.” Al swirls his glass. “The place is all locked up but when you need to go just wave at the door and it’ll unlock.”

            “Got it.”

            He stands up and finishes his drink, “I’m going to sleep like a log. Q I hope we meet again.”

            “Same. I’ll have to come back.”

            “I hope you do. Could make something with Themba’s eggs next time.”

            “That sounds great. Thanks. Again.”

            “Travel safe.” He gives her a nod and walks out. The lights in the room dim as he leaves. Q sighs and walks to the mattress. She pops a mint in her mouth and inhales sharply as she bites into it. The blanket is old and worn and flutters down as she throws it over the mattress. Her boots come off with a clomp and she slips under the blanket, wiggling some stiffness out of her toes. The mattress is lumpier than she had expected and it pokes into her back. She twists the red band on her thumb and goes through her breathing routine. The lights go off. She sets a mental alarm. The mattress swims beneath her.

The buzzing of Q’s watch wakes her up. Four. She lies in bed her eyes straining to make out the room in the darkness. The lights filter a muted orange into the room. The blanket lies on the floor, discarded at some stage in the night. Her mouth is dry and stale. With a groan she gets up to get a glass of water. She times out the start of the morning in her head. There’s enough time to do the morning stretches, the knots from the night’s sleep slowly getting worked out. At four-thirty, she puts on her boots and grabs her coat. She scrawls a quick note and leaves it on the counter, placing her ring on top. The door slides open when she waves it and she steps into the concrete entranceway. She pulls up her hood when she feels the cold. The door swings closed and the entranceway goes dark. With a groan the steel door slowly swings open. A rush of cold air makes her pull up her mask. The wind, funnelled by the buildings above, is racing down the street. Q steps out onto the pavement. She pushes her hands deeper into her pockets. Her breath comes out her mask in ghostly blue bursts. It is illuminated by an old sign’s feeble glow. ‘The Embassy of Malta’. The sign’s plastic has long since been yellowed.

            She looks down the street. At the far end, she sees the collapsed building which must have housed the original bar. She forgot to get its name. She hunches her shoulders forward and walks up the street. The ground is covered in a hard layer of ice and she holds her body stiffly as she makes her way back to her ship. Every now and then she casts a dubious glance at the icicles hanging from the streetlights. The brick-faced buildings look unnaturally smooth and shiny in their thin layer of ice. Q shivers looking at them. It is slow going walking on ice. She reaches the street corner. Her ship has started its defrosting process and steam rises from its blue and white sides. The drips from its nose freeze upon hitting the ground. The hatch slides open and she swings herself up and in. The faux leather seat still holds the night’s coldness. She flicks the switches on the dashboards and there is a cough as the hydrogen engine comes to life. The headlights set the world a-sparkle and Q narrows her eyes. A fallen street sign is frozen into the pavement, the lettering spelling ‘Putney St’ just barely visible through the ice. The engine roars as Q pulls the joystick back. The ship slowly rises as Q leaves the dark, grey world behind. She hovers over the tops of the buildings checking her ship’s screen to see the expected trajectory of the shuttle. The sky is a thin grey on the horizon. She keeps this to her right as she continues her ascent. The buildings shrink. The little red winks of communication between the Telkom and Brixton towers have long since stopped. As she continues climbing northwards she sees a frozen dam beneath her and has a flash of memory. They are taking a drive to Zoo Lake to go ice skating. She takes a deep breath and locks into the docking orbit. With the ship now on autopilot, she settles back. They are spinning on the ice; she is laughing as they fall. Snow falls on them as they lie on their backs catching their breaths. The last of the Egyptian Geese stand huddled on the island watching them.

Johannesburg I In Dark Light

By Matthew Ross

The tunnel wasn’t entirely silent. There were constant hums and murmuring voices coming from different directions but it wasn’t clear exactly where. They created an echo chamber of discomfort that woke Axel from his semi-slumber. He hadn’t been sleeping properly for fear of what lurked in the darkness. He lifted his head slowly from his forearms and rested it on the tunnel wall behind him. He was in the same position he’d fallen asleep in, hunched over himself as if he’d been crying into his lap. Despite what he used to put his body through, he hadn’t grown accustomed to the thickness of the dust which coated the back of his throat and nostrils.

He remembered now that before he had fallen asleep he had faced the right side of his body in the direction he had been moving. There was no other way to tell. So now he got up and carried on walking, hoping not to step on anything that moved, or that had the potential to hurt him. The hums continued incomprehensibly despite Axel’s familiarity with South African languages. His inability to speak other African languages was his weakness, which made the unidentifiable hums fearsome.

Axel had lost track of how long he’d been making his way to the Sandton Station from Park Station. The Gautrain Underground had become his dark escape—his only option. While traversing the deep abyss, he fantasised about what it used to be like when the train was operational, carting people around the metropolis for ordinary day-to-day activities. A time when you had to pay for such a luxury. A time when routines were sobering, but escaping was easier.

His legs ached from bracing with each step as he was trying not to get his clothes too dirty. He needed to look decent which was made difficult by the filth on the ground and dust in the air. Axel often wondered what the dust would look like if there was light in the tunnel. Would it create a mirage that coloured the distant views like it used to do with Joburg sunsets? Did the golden horizon out there still match the gold-rich land? He used this as motivation to reach his destination, otherwise he’d never know.

He eventually stepped on something that yanked away from under the pain of his weight.

“Fok!” exclaimed a gravelly voice that echoed down the tunnel. It was followed by a deathly silence.

Axel gasped inwards, relieved his dusty vocal cords didn’t produce anything. It seemed as if the person to whom the voice belonged was shuffling in his seated or lying position. He heard what sounded like squeaking rats quickly scurrying away from this person as a result of the fright.

“Wie’s daar?” whispered the voice.  

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. But… Why are you lying on the ground?” Axel whispered back.

“Mmmm.” The voice sounded cocky, slowing down and lifting its pitch carefully. “You only speak English, I hear. Fuckin’ watch your step, man. You’ll get killed very quickly.”

“I can’t see anything.”

“You’ll get used to it, man.”

“I hope so.”

“Are you another one of those mense looking for a way out?”

“When you say it like that, it sounds stupid.”

The other voice laughed. “Hey maar you’ve got a long way to go.”

“Do you know the way? It is this way, right?” He pointed, forgetting that the man couldn’t see him.

“Shhhhh. Careful. They’ll stop you. You must mos follow the rats. They will always find a way out.”

“Is that what you’ve been doing? Following the rats to get out?”

“Are you kidding? I’m not trying to get out. No way man.”

“So, you stay down here on purpose?”

“Nobody stays here on purpose. Maar, where else can we go? I’m Freddie, by the way.”

“Axel,” he replied, hunching down so his whisper didn’t have to travel far.

“Pleased to meet you, Axel.”

He felt comfort for the first time since starting his journey. He could tell Freddie didn’t have many teeth.

“Sê vir my, Axel. Why are you by yourself?”

“I have to get out of here.”

Freddie coughed a smokey chuckle. “Ja but you can never come back then.”

Axel was unfocused, trying to follow the sounds of the squeaking rats.

“What are you hoping to find?”

“I don’t know… A new life. But for now, water would be good.”

Freddie wheezed with laughter which progressed to a fit of coughs. He heaved up mucus and spat it out.

“Nee, my babies. Come back! These are my babies. Hold out your hand and I’ll show you.”

Axel didn’t trust Freddie enough but needed to find out more from him.

“Here,” said Freddie, “Waar’s jou hand?”

Freddie grabbed Axel’s hand and turned it, palm facing up. Straight away, Axel felt a small, furry animal with claws, tickling his palm. It immediately scuttled up his arm. Axel shook vigorously, sending the creature flying to the right. And it screeched upon landing.

“Hey, why the fuck did you gooi my baby like that? Poes!”

“I’m sorry. I got a fright.”

“You still get frights, hey?” Freddie laughed again, expelling more bile. “Do you believe in ghosts, Axel? You would if you lived around here.”

“Was that a rat?”

“These are my children.” He started talking to the so-called children.

Axel realised with alarm that there were many rats in the tunnel, all gathered around Freddie. “Can you show me which way to go?”

“To get where?”

“Up there.”

“Up where?”

“Where the ones who made it are.”

“Ag fuck them, man. What do you want from them that we don’t have?”

Axel’s fatigue tempted him, for a brief moment, to consider giving up and joining Freddie’s sloth-like life. “Just… can you tell me where to go or not?”

“The only way out is up, to the heavens where the gods dine with cutlery made from our gold.” Freddie chortled at his own comment.

“Am I close to Sandton Station yet? I can’t go up until I’m there.”

“Shhhh!! Don’t say that you mad fok.” Freddie laughed again. “So you’re looking for the light, hey?”

“Is that where it is? Where there’s light?”

“Follow the rats until you get to the light and then ask for a guy named Pieter. He’ll help you. But you better have some skyfs for him.”

Axel quickly patted his front and back trouser pockets but found nothing tradeable. “Freddie, do you have any—”

Freddie wheezed with laughter. “Don’t be greedy now, my cousin. I have nothing for you. Nothing but the happiness in my heart, and my beautiful children here. Now you better fuck off before that changes.”

Axel wasn’t sure what he meant by that, but it sounded like he was still smiling. “Thanks, Freddie. Thanks for your help.”

“Follow the rats!” Freddie said as Axel began down the tunnel towards the light he couldn’t see. “Oh, I almost forgot,” he continued, “you will find him after the third station. You know which suburbs they are—the main ones, in order.  And don’t worry, only when you’re in the dark, can you truly see the light.”

As he walked through the darkness, Axel repeated “the third station” in his head over and over again. He remembered the stations stopping at Killarney, Rosebank and Sandton, but that was a long time ago, and they had all been above ground. Was it the same? Had he perhaps not known of another station? He moved slowly, keeping his ears open for the rats.

He didn’t like to be alone this long because sadness swelled inside him, slowing him down, reminding him of how sobering reality was. But he felt he didn’t deserve to go back, not after what had happened. He was too far down this road anyway. He did however miss the days spent outside, wishing he hadn’t taken them for granted. The warning signs had been clear in the way the rich had been building their shiny, incubated ‘Towers of Babel’ to escape the trash on the ground and the dust in the air, the same rich who had created all the rubbish and had mined the land to death. Axel used to be too proud to be part of the change he was seeing around him, but now he saw it as his only escape.

The hums became identifiable, and Axel could hear a murmuring community up ahead, speaking a language he did not recognise. French perhaps? He approached cautiously, thinking this had to be the Killarney station. He could see what appeared to be firelight on the side of the tunnel ahead of him. The sound seemed to be coming from the same place.

As he approached the platform, Axel was astounded by the number of people moving like a swarm of bees, holding flame torches above their heads, conducting transactions with vigorous arm gestures. There must have been about 200 of them, engaging in an entire trade economy of sorts which took place in a self-sufficient hub of a common tongue. Axel recognised their colourful, patterned clothing comprising three pieces seemingly made from the same material: one for the blouse, one to wrap around the waist, and the last to wear as a headpiece. He knew which country they were from, and he knew what business they were into. Previously, they had hijacked many of the buildings in Doornfontein, the place Axel wished he could forget.

His last encounter with them sent him down a gluttonous pathway of Apples—that’s what they called the common street drug they sold. Axel was reminded of the months that became a haze of unreliable memories. He lost his naivety to them having been introduced by his brother who was equally beguiled by their beautiful clothing and inviting characters, by their lifestyle of sex, drugs, and online crimes. Axel hadn’t seen his brother since then, and he still carries the blame. He was angered by their ability to carry on as if nothing had happened, as if the past didn’t exist. And they clearly felt they “owned” this area that didn’t belong to them. What annoyed Axel most was the jealousy he felt at their sense of community, something he hadn’t felt in a long time. But he had fallen for this before and wasn’t going to do it again.

Despite his aching stomach and dry mouth, he continued past them towards the darkness, away from the light of the first tunnel. After a while, he began counting the steps, hoping it would keep him moving. Every ten steps, he told himself to do “just ten more”. That went on until he reached 3480 steps. Lights appeared in the distance and the sounds homogenised again. Axel hoped it was a sign of underground Rosebank. These voices seemed more aggressive, like they were fighting with each other.

This time, his presence did not go unnoticed. As he approached, he could hear the language was different from what he had heard before, though he still could not understand it—African, but definitely not South African.

“Welcome!!” sang a woman’s voice. It was followed by an eruption of celebratory jeers from others around her. This was a striking contrast to the whispers by which he’d been previously addressed. “You are welcome. Come here, with us,” she continued.

Axel’s throat had dried out from breathing in the dust for too long. They looked like the ones from Ponte Tower. But he couldn’t be sure.

“You are welcome!” they all chanted. There must’ve been a couple hundred on this platform too.

“Do… Do you have water?”

There was a sudden silence followed by a collective laugh. Axel was absorbed into the masses which spilled into the main tunnel from the platform. They were all very affectionate, embracing him one after the other such that the direction in which Axel was moving was dictated entirely by their welcomes. None of them had water.

Axel was nearly carried to the staircase, the exit of which seemed to be barricaded from the outside. On the far side of the platform, several people lounged around on dishevelled cushions all pushed together to create one endless bed. Draped fabric cordoned off sections of the station, haphazardly creating separate rooms. It was cozy. Comfortable. The warm firelight and soft make-shift furnishings made this the most inviting place Axel had seen in a long time. It was almost romantic.

The ushering conveyed Axel halfway up the stairs. From there upwards, on each level, sat a bunch of strong, proud-looking men. At the top of the pyramid sat the grandest of them all, his massive body clad only from the waist down in colourful, striped trousers. Axel was positioned in front of him, and left alone.

The godly human looked down at him. There was a long silence and then Axel swallowed painfully and spoke.

“I don’t mean to cause any trouble. I’ve been travelling a long way and… I could use some help. Do… Do you have just a bit of water?”

Axel could feel the eyes of everyone else behind him looking at the back of his head, and at the man at the top of the stairs. Axel was the only one with dreads, tied up in a bun on top of his head. Everyone else had shaved heads. Everyone. And they were still silent. The only thing he could hear was his own pulse thumping in his ears. Eventually, the man cracked a smile, followed by a lazy chuckle, which sent ripples of relief through the crowd. The man gestured to someone a layer down from him, pointed at Axel and then at the fabric rooms.

One of the men on the stairs quickly stood up and made his way towards Axel, wrapping his arm around him so tightly that his armpit swallowed Axel’s neck. He led the way over to the draped rooms, yelling an instruction to a collection of thin men who stood around the sides of the pyramid. They all moved in different directions, on a mission to fulfill their orders. Axel was pushed onto a small heap of stained cushions which exhaled dust when his tired body fell onto them. Within moments, curtains of holey fabric were drawn around him.

He barely had time to sit up properly when a figure, wearing a puffy blouse tucked into a floor-length, vibrantly coloured and patterned skirt, came into the room holding a cup of water. The figure sat delicately beside Axel without spilling a single drop. She smiled at him and opened the slit in her dress to expose her legs rather lustfully. Axel was unsure of what to do, his eyes continually glancing to the cup. She leaned forward to offer him the water, smiling. Axel looked at her, in disbelief that anyone would be so willing to part with water these days. He looked at it swirling around in the tin cup. Then he grabbed the cup of water and drank it in three satisfying gulps, pushing her slightly aside in doing so.

She seemed startled by his greed, but remained by his side, elegantly sitting with her legs folded neatly to the side, like a princess. Axel had forgotten how soothing water could be, cooling his body from the inside, filling his blood with the elixir of life. He couldn’t help but feel distracted by her eager smile. And then it dawned on him: this was too easy. “What’s in the water?”

“What do you mean?”

“The water. What did you put in it?”

“What are you trying to say?”

“No one gives away water this easily. I should have guessed. How could I be so stupid!”

“What are you on about?”

“Don’t treat me like a child. I know your kind. And I’ve been down this road before: you give me something I desperately need, making it seem out of kindness, only to hook me onto whatever you’ve laced this water with, and then I spend the rest of my days wanting more and paying you back.”

The smile left her face. “This isn’t your first time. It’s funny, you seem so—”

“It doesn’t matter what I seem. I’m not going down this road. I didn’t run away from the last debt just to land myself in more.” Axel got up to leave.

“Then how are you going to pay for this?”

“Pay for what?”

“If you’re so experienced then you should know what was in that water.” 

Axel clenched his fists, not sure if he was angrier with her or himself, already feeling his body losing its strength. He crouched down to her level and looked her dead in the eye, grabbing each of her shoulders, remembering what Freddie said about fear.”

“I’m not afraid of you people.”

“Ah. There’s the inexperience I suspected earlier.” 

Before he could get a firmer grip on her, he felt himself being yanked into the air and thrown onto the floor, hitting his head on the ground between two cushions.  A while later, he opened his eyes slowly, aware of a dull headache. He was unsure of where he was as it was darker and he was no longer surrounded by the hanging fabrics. His body felt numb and his face tingly. Moving wasn’t an option. He was lying on a cold floor with his neck bent, head pressed against the wall behind him. There were a few tall figures standing around him, waiting for him to wake up—three of them, not allowing room for escape. Axel mumbled, knowing his numbness wasn’t a result of the headache.

“Ahh the thirsty man can’t move now, can he?” said a man with a thick accent, laughing at him.

Axel was able to move his feet and his fingers, but not much else, other than some sloppy rocking from side to side. He dropped his head to the left, seeing the tunnel he needed to traverse in order to get to the next intersection, to get to Sandton. His will was stronger than ever before, but his body was immobile. He tried to speak, but all he could do was drool.

“Next time, you won’t drink our valuables so quickly, will you?” asked a voice smoothly.

Axel was struggling to coordinate himself but he managed to sluggishly hoist his right leg over his left to sway his body onto its side. His mouth tasted the sooty ground while his right arm flopped forward, just as he hoped it would. He pushed against the floor, lifting his heavy body as if carrying the weight of the abandoned Gautrain itself. The men standing near him were laughing and commenting, enjoying his feeble efforts to get away.

One of them leaned down and grabbed the back of his neck. “Your debt will never go away. We own this tunnel. And there’s nowhere to hide, nowhere to go.” He slammed Axel’s face onto the ground again, cracking his nose. They left him there with nothing but wrath coursing through his muddled veins.

His eyes were heavy and wanted to close but he knew he needed to fight the drug. After what seemed like hours, he saw another blurred figure walking towards him from far away. The figure moved closer, stopping every once in a while until it was right next to him, hunched beside him as if trying not to be seen. This person held a flame to Axel’s face.

“Axel?” he whispered.

Axel could only move his eyeballs to look at the rather small man as if that were an adequate response.

“Let me help you up. We have to get moving. Quickly.” The stranger helped Axel to his feet, pulling his arm over his short frame to support his weight. “We have to walk now,” he whispered.

Axel could feel the urgency as the stranger ushered him along the tunnel with considerable force for his stature. Axel managed to slap one foot forward at a time while the tunnel spun around him. He mumbled incoherently.

“Shhh. Don’t speak.”

“Whreltheyf?”

“Shhh,” the small person lowered his voice even more. “I know what you’re asking but we don’t say where they’re from anymore. They have ears everywhere.”

“Hmmryoo?”

“Oh, I’m Pieter. I’ve been expecting you but I wasn’t sure you’d make it through the second station. Few people have since it was hijacked. Lucky they didn’t knife you hey.”

Pieter didn’t say much after that, needing to catch his breath and slow down his pace. Axel had so many questions but couldn’t form the words properly in his mouth. They seemed to walk for ages although there was still no change in the surroundings. But Axel kept going, knowing that he was nearing Sandton with each step. Eventually, Pieter sat him down on the ground, between the tracks and the wall of the tunnel, seemingly unable to carry the weight anymore.

Axel was finally able to gain some strength in his tongue to articulate his words better, although they were still quite slurred. “Why are you helping me? What do you want?”

“Nothing. Your brother got me out of my mess with them and guessed you’d be coming this way too, either to find him or to run away.”

“My brother? Where is he?” Axel was dizzy with shock.

Pieter held each of Axel’s shoulders and whispered carefully into his ear. “We are far away from the second station now so you should be safe. And it’s dark enough that no one can see you. I’m leaving some pills by your left hand side. Take them when you wake up but try not to sleep for too long. As soon as your body hits the floor it means you’ve dropped out of consciousness for long enough. The pearly gates are above us; just follow the light.

“Why are you leaving? Where’s my brother.” Axel could barely fight the fatigue anymore.

“I have to go now. Just remember, our mines may be empty, but our dust is made of gold.”

Before Axel could respond, he felt himself drifting off again, despite his urge to find out more. The exhaustion was like nothing he’d experienced before and he had no choice but to succumb to it. When he woke later, he wasn’t sure if it was the following day or twenty minutes later. He felt the familiarity of a hangover in his head so he assumed considerable time had passed. He padded his hand along the ground on his left hand side and was relieved to find the pills still there. He held them in his hand, still with his eyes closed, wishing the pills could take him away.

He opened his eyes and was surprised to see light, right in the palm of his hand. He wasn’t sure if it was the wearing off of the previous high but the pills were shining in the dark—a soft, golden light. He was familiar with the different types of pills, but he had never seen ones like this before. He remembered what Pieter said about their dust being made of gold and wondered if that had anything to do with what lay in his hands.

Axel looked to the right, down the long dark tunnel that lay before him, wondering if he’d ever get there. He thought about how far he’d come, realising that Freddie was right—he’d never be able to go back. He existed somewhere between two places no one dared to mention. And no one was coming to find him. He knew he didn’t want to go back, but didn’t know what lay ahead. Axel began breaking open one capsule at a time, so the contents fell into his other hand. He took a deep breath in, not knowing where this stuff would take him. But he knew his options were limited. If he couldn’t reach the next light, he would have to bring the light to himself.